He goes for the throat,
She braces for the stroke.
She tries to feel safe,
But he is every place.
He's an undeniable presence,
She just cannot find the sense.
She cannot run, she cannot hide,
He holds her up his prize his pride.
She is a puppet to the master,
He chases her and screams 'faster'.
She cannot breathe,
He sits and seethes.
I'm sorry she chokes,
Be better he pokes.
I tried she cries,
You failed he replies.
Forgive me she pleads,
I will never he decrees.
Never?
Never she repeats.
Never she concedes.
I will never be free.
Now I realize that this is pretty pathetic as far as poems go, but for me this is incredible. I have tried for hours- and failed miserably- to write poems in the past, and this just fell on the paper in a matter of minutes. And reading it calmed my fear. The more I read it the better I felt and the better I understood my panic.
Now looking back I'm happy to think maybe I can control my panic attacks, and make something worthwhile in the process.